I was chatting with with my bro today. I asked “how do you just - do that heinous shit?” I remarked that I could never do what they did to those people if i got rich and powerful.
He’s like “you sure? How do you know you wouldn’t?”
And the more i think about it, I’m not so sure. Are we all just monsters forced to be good by the status quo? Are we brainwashed to be good? Is being evil the best way to live and we’re all just suckers?
I honestly feel sick thinking about the implications.
How can good ever win? What the hell can we do?
Sorry for the cringy rant but I’m pretty broke up about it.
Yeah I figure you’re right. Just spun around by all this. Like im out of my depth with stuff like this. Things so evil is disorienting.
Been there for years. I’m exceedingly bitter and full of a deep abiding sadness and overwhelming rage.
It’s been deleterious to my health.
I can’t continue like this. I do what precious little I can to help and protect my community, but it all seems so paltry and inadequate. And I see people with far greater power than I, who claim to want to help, enabling pedophiles and fascists and opposing people who want to make things better.
My soul hurts. At like a 7.
And it just tears me up that I’m the maddest at those who this doesn’t seem to faze. Not the pedos or the genocidal or the fascists. The people who look at all of this and shrug it off like it’s just the natural order of things and I’m freaking out over nothing. Don’t they notice at all?
Sorry, I’m rambling. I’ll stop.
Yeah that’s where I’m at bro. People are sleepin on this. Letting it happen. Like a bad dream where no matter how hard you yell, people can’t hear you.